"Why do you never write about THIS on your blog??"

Last week, I looked forward to Saturday all week. I had the night off, my mom and dad were going out, Sean was going away for the night, and Scott is never around. I was going to stay home, eat tons of fattening food, and watch movies.

But, my best friend (Kyla) was free and so was I so we decided to go out.

We hit up Jack Astor's and got pan bread with cheese and I order chicken parmigiana. It was bowtie pasta in a cream sauce with a deep fried chicken breast with tomato sauce and cheese on top. YUM. As I was shoving everything into my face, Kyla said to me, "Why do you never write about THIS on your blog??"

Here's the truth, guys.

I plan my fat days about a week in advance. And all week I eat really well, really healthy. I work out 5 days a week at least. And so I really look forward to my one fat day a week. And when I have it, I probably go a little more insane than I should. Saturday was a good example of that. Following my pan bread, chicken, and pasta, I then got popcorn, ate some chocolate covered pretzels, and had sour candy!!!!

This weekend's bad eating made me realize its time for me to pull in the reigns and crack down on my poor eating habits... even on my fat days. I went way overboard and I've paid for it. Now, it will take me all week to get back to where I was (weight-wise). And, today I'm cranky and bloated. I'm also really stressed. I find that exercising and eating healthy helps to keep my stress level down and my happy level up.

So, today I'm back on 100%. No more cheating, no more going off. I will still have my fat days.... but it probably won't include QUITE as much as Saturday night did. Having a fat day doesn't have to mean over doing it. It can just mean enjoying what little bit of extra fat I enjoy.

I also kind of feel ashamed admitting this to all of you guys!!! I've heard from a lot of people since I started dieting how much of an "inspiration" I am (which feels great!!). But when I act without regard, I just feel like I'm letting everyone down. So, I'm asking you, my friends.... if you see me eating poorly, or talking about it... STOP ME!!! I bought a size 12 dress for sean and alicha's wedding and I'm a 14 now!! I need to lose enough weight in the next 4 and a half weeks to fit into this dress, eeek!!!

And if you need encouragement, send me a message and I'll be that person for you! Sometimes knowing you're going to have a friend asking you about your diet or working out is all the motivation you need!!

Love you all :)